What is sunshine without a storm?

Have you ever wondered what makes rainbows so magical or why it feels so good to come out of the house on a cold winters day and to feel the sunshine touch your face? Would we truly appreciate that feeling of the sun on our faces if it weren't so bitterly cold? If we didn't …

Scars on the Soul and acts of Kindness

At birth we are full of wonder, new sights, sounds and smells envelope our senses.  We are more open to people, learning and life. Something happens along the way and each year as we grow older we start learning that not all in the world is good, kind or nice.  We harden and start blocking …

The story of how I almost killed myself and why I am happy I didn’t…

No this is not Jerry Springer nor is it manufactured for the benefit of anyone, its a hard cold fact to swallow, but I almost died by my own hands and yes I really am grateful and happy that I didn't succeed. Suicide has been around for eons, since the beginning of times, it is …

Who am I?

A simple answer I am Me I don't subscribe to labels. I had a dream a couple of weeks ago in which someone stood in front of me and asked me "Who are you?".  They told me not to answer but to think. I remember looking at them and thinking WTF.  They just repeated... Think. …

You are worthwhile!

Oh how I wish I had a time machine to transport me to my younger self.  Oh the things I'd tell her, the stories we'd share and the wisdom I have gained in the last 20 decades would be imparted. I can't go back but perhaps I could impart the wisdom on others. The first …

Just one of those wonderful PTSD Triggers

It's funny how things don't come out until triggered. Things from the past that haunt your subconscious mind triggered into the waking moments of little to no consequence. My physical therapist has me on my stomach often to do weird things to my nerves and muscles in my shoulders and back.  I don't like being …

Mourning a different kind of loss

If you have ever spoken to a therapist or someone who has studied up they will tell you about the five stages of grief.  They'll tell you that in order to heal after a loss that each person will swing between each of them for an undefined period in time until they reach the final …

Be true… Be open… Live

First published Nov 1, 2007 How can life be as it is without the hearts of others, how can life be as it is without the symbolism of this world? In reality it is such a chaotic place to be, all the signals, messages and hearts beating different tunes. Have you ever walked into a …

I am stronger than I believed…

I have been on a hiatus of sorts, not much energy for deep thoughts pertaining to life over the last few years.  I don't feel guilty or bad either, sometimes you just need to take a break to focus on the present in order to look once again towards the future horizons. This is the …

Dance Party for One

Ever had one? Go on and admit it... surely at least once you've had a dance party for one? Everyone has that one song that hits deep, that song that when you pump up high and you let your body flow with it... it releases something inside you, something that you won't understand unless you …